I can proudly say that I am beautiful...

I can't believe I haven't written anything since September...it's kind of funny because I haven't written anything, yet I've had a lot of things going on, and a ton of emotions within the mix. Emotions of missing the ones that I've lost, or just missing the ones that have fought and kicked cancer in the ass. I'm thinking about where they would be today, how they would feel about their self-worth, and if they would be different. I think each challenge you are faced with, not only makes you mature but it helps you become who you want to be. With my experience alone, it's definitely shaped my life, my personality and how I look at people today. I definitely am not who I was a year ago--and it will be a year on March 19th. One thing that amazed me was when I got an email from St. Baldrick's, it was telling me that Fast Eddies was hosting another event on March 17th and where my hair went and how it has helped 3 different children, with 3 different stories. I couldn't help but smile and have tears run down my face because it brought back so many feelings, and the desire of shaving my head in the first place. My first feeling from last year was oh my gosh, I'm about to shave my head...my hands are sweating, my heart is about to jump out of my chest, and that I hope I didn't have anything stuck in my teeth because I knew pictures would be taken. From feeling like that to how I felt when I got the email was inspiration to me. I felt proud, happiness, and that fact that I am making a difference; if it's in my own life or in others I did it. Although, I will not be shaving my head this year, I will be volunteering and as well cheering on the Shavee's. The moment that would change my life again would be if one girl decided to shave her head, and who could sit up there with 39 other males and be the one to go the extra mile. That would honestly put me in tears and get goose-bumps..like I have as we speak.  I hope that a person who has battled cancer, or is still fighting can see that without hair that they are absolutely gorgeous in my eyes and always will be.  My hair has grown a lot thoughout the past couple of months and I've realized more so now that even with hair I was beautiful, but without hair you have the ability to be STRONG and BEAUTIFUL in so many ways. I feel that most women can't see that..they focus so much on the negative that someone utters or the harmful actions that people choose. They don't realize what is truly important or even their self-worth, which I really wish they could realize what I see in them.